I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT I WOULD ALWAYS HAVE MY MOMMA HERE WITH ME.IT'S STRANGE HOW WE NEVER THINK THAT THE PEOPLE THAT WE LOVE AND COUNT ON THE MOST CAN EVER LEAVE US BUT LIFE GIVES YOU A BLOW THAT YOU WERE NOT EXPECTING.ON THE NIGHT BEFORE MY MOMMA DIED SHE CALLED ME AND ASKED ME TO COME OVER BECAUSE SHE HAD PASSED OUT AND DID NOT FEEL WELL.IT ONLY TOOK ME FIVE MINUTES TO GET TO HER HOUSE FROM MINE. WHEN I GOT THERE SHE WAS SWEATING PROFUSLY,WEAK AND SCARED FROM HER EXPERIENCE THAT HAD JUST OCCURED. SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE WAS GETTING A STAMP TO MAIL A BILL OFF WHEN SHE PASSED OUT.I KNEELED DOWN ON MY KNEES IN FRONT OF HER CHAIR AND ASKED HER IF SHE HAD CALLED MY SISTER SHE SAID NO SO I CALLED MY OLDER SISTER AND TOLD HER WE NEEDED HER AT MOM'S MY SISTER CAME AND WE WERE GOING TO TAKE HER TO THE HOSPITAL BUT WHEN MOM STOOD UP SHE GOT DIZZY AND VERY WEAK.SO WE CALLED 911 THEY GOT THERE AND TOOK MOMMA TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM.THE SKY WAS CLOUDY AND A STORM WAS RAPIDLY MOVING IN TO AMARILLO WERE WE LIVE.WE TOLD MOMMA THAT WE WOULD MEET HER THERE AT THE HOSPITAL.WHEN WE GOT THERE MOMMA WAS HOOKED US TO A HEART MONITOR MEASURING HER VITAL SIGNS.WE TALKED TO MOMMA AND THEN THE NURSES ASKED US TO STEP OUT OF THE ROOM SO ME AND MY SISTER WENT OUT SIDE WE WERE HAVING THE WORST THUNDERSTORM AMARILLO HAS EVER HAD. WE LEARNED THAT A TORNADO WAS ON THE GROUND A FEW MILES AWAY.WE WERE SHOCKED AT THE HAIL THAT WAS COMING DOWN BASEBALL SIZED CRASHING IN WINDOWS AND TEARING STUFF UP LIKE CRAZY.WE CHECKED ON MOMMA WHEN THE DOCTORS AND NURSES WOULD LET US.MY MOM WAS SENT COME WITH SYNCOPE AND A URINARY TRACT INFECTION.WE TOOK MOMMA HOME AND MY SISTER WALKED HER IN AND WE WENT HOME THE STORM WAS SO BAD THAT IT HAD TOTALED MY VAN.THE NEXT MORNING MY SISTER GOT MY MOMMA'S MEDICATION AND MY MOM PICKED IT UP AND TOOK A DOSE.ME AND MY MOM WORKED TOGETHER MY MOM TOLD MY SISTER THAT SHE WAS GOING TO GO HOME AND REST BECAUSE SHE STILL FELT WEAK.LATER THAT NIGHT ON JUNE 22,2004 MY BROTHER INLAW TOLD MY HUSBAND THAT I NEEDED TO CALL MY MOM'S HOUSE BECAUSE THE POLICE HAD CAME AND GOT MY SISTER AND TOOK HER TO MY MOM'SSO I CALLED OVER THERE.I TOLD THE POLICE OFFICER THAT ANSWERED MOMMA'S PHONE THAT I WAS HER DAUGHTER AND WHAT WAS GOING ON OVER THERE.I JUST COULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT HE SAID WHEN HE TOLD ME THAT MY MOM HAD PASSED AWAY. I REMEMBER HOLDING THE PHONE MY HUSBAND SAID BABE WHAT?I TOLD HIM OH MY GOD MOMMA'S GONE OH MY GOD MOMMA'S GONE MY HUSBAND TOOK THE PHONE ALL I COULD SAY WAS OH MY GOD NOT MY MOMMA OH GOD PLEASE NOT MY MOMMA! MY HUSBAND TOOK ME TO MY MOMMA'S HOUSE WHEN WE PULLED UP I HEARD MY SISTER SCREAMING IN THE DRIVE WAY.I RAN UP TO HER SHE SCREAMED GENIE MOMMA'S GONE, MOMMA'S GONE HOW CAN YOU DIE OF A UTI.THE POLICE FINALLY TOLD ME THAT A NEIGHBOR HAD COME TO CHECK ON MOMMA AND FOUND HER IN FRONT OF HER COMPUTER NOT BREATHING,THEY TRIED TO DO CPR BUT SHE WAS GONE.I WAS LEAD IN TO THE HOUSE BY MY HUSBAND AND MY BROTHER INLAW AFTER THE POLICE DETERMINED THAT IT WAS NOT A HOMICIDE.I GOT TO THE HALLWAY NEXT TO MY MOM'S BEDROOM AND I COLLAPSED CRYING WHEN MY HUSBAND PULLED BACK THE SHEET COVERING THE BODY OF OUR MOTHER.I HATE MYSELF FOR NOT GOING ALL THE WAY IN HER ROOM AND HOLDING HER IN MY ARMS.WHY DID I NOT DO THAT? I ASK MYSELF THAT EVERYDAY.THE WOMAN THAT GAVE ME LIFE WAS GONE. ALL THAT WEEK IT RAINED AND RAINED,I BELIEVE THAT HEAVEN WAS GRIEVING WITH US.IN THE FOLLOWING DAYS ALL I COULD SAY WAS THAT THE LORD SAID TO BE ABSENT FROM THE BODY IS TO BE PRESENT WITH THE LORD.AND TO THIS DAY I SAY THAT TO MYSELF.WE HAD OUR DISAGREEMENTS IN THIS LIFE ,BUT I LOVED HER NO MATTER WHAT WE SAID OR DID NOT SAY.THESE EVENTS HAUNT ME EVERYDAY.MY MOM WAS MY HERO BECAUSE SHE DEDICATED HER LIFE TO CARING FOR OTHERS.MY MOM WAS A CERTIFIED NURSE AIDE AND I WANTED TO BE LIKE HER SO I BECAME ONE TOO.WHEN I WENT BACK TO WORK A RESIDENTS FAMILY MEMBER TOLD ME THAT MY MOM HAD TOUCHED SO MANY PEOPLES LIVES THAT.THE PLACE THAT WE WORKED HAD A MEMORIAL SERVICE FOR HER AND THAT THE PEOPLE WE CARED FOR US QUITE AND A VERY SAD FEELING HAD BEEN OVER POTTER HOUSE ON THE WEEK THAT SHE PASSED.AT MEAL TIME IT WAS USUALLY KIND OF NOISEY BUT THAT WEEK IT HAD BEEN SO QUITE THAT YOU COULD HEAR A PIN DROP.I AM SO PROUD THAT MY MOM WAS THE PERSON THAT GOD HAD CHOSEN FOR ME TO BE MY MOM. YOU SEE GOD PICKS THE PEOPLE THAT HE FEELS ARE THE BEST PEOPLE TO BE OUR PARENTS,HE PICKS THEM BECAUSE HE KNOWS THAT THEY HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO MAKE US WHO WE ARE.GOD IS SO AWESOME THAT HE KNEW US BEFORE WE WERE EVER CREATED. I THANK YOU SWEET JESUS FOR GIVING ME THE PARENTS THAT I HAVE AND I WOULD NOT CHANGE ANY PART OF THEM. NONE OF US ARE PERFECT BUT GOD KNOWS US AND LOVES US JUST THE SAME.NOT DAY GOES BY THAT I DO NOT THINK OF MOMMA I TALK TO HER AND I KEEP A JOURNAL OF LETTERS THAT I WRITE TO HER AND MY GOD. I HAVE A MYSPACE DEDICATED TO HER MEMORY.I WILL NEVER LET HER MEMORY DIE TILL I MYSELF GO HOME TO BE WITH MY LORD AND MY BABIES AND MY BELOVED MOTHER. ~ I LOVE YOU MOMMA~ LOVE GENIE